mistakes are made and confusion ensues, and yes this post is about you. I should have text you back sooner, but that day all I could do was sleep. that post was my frustration with an ex, and because of my feelings toward your ex, the assumption was made that it was directed at you, and unfortunately I slept until 6 and didn’t wake up in time to shed light on the situation. I don’t like the anger and the rage, it’s not you. I’m not asking for you to be friends with me again, I’m not even asking for forgiveness, I just thought I should provide insight and some clarity. You’re entitled to hate me if you want, you can hate whoever you want and not have to justify any of it, as humans we have that right, but you’re a better person that a grudge. I know you’re a better person than a grudge because I have seen you forgive people even when they’ve hurt you so deeply you had to shelter yourself, that’s a part of what makes you wonderful. I hold no grudges, even against people who have blatantly and maliciously harmed me, even against him. To this day I know how much he intentionally sought to hurt me, but I refuse to hate him. I will take the lessons and the love I remember. I have conciously chosen to only take the good times and things from that period with him. I won’t dwell on the bad, I’ll only thank him and remember the happiness and the experiences we shared. Just like our friendship, you can swear at me, call me what you will, and say what you will, but I will never hold onto those instances. I will remember mustaches, laughs, inside jokes, and a wonderful family. I will always hold you in a very special place in my heart. The memories will be kept on a shelf where, every once in a while, I’ll take them down and revisit them, smiling fondly of everything that was. All I want is to apologize for the past and say what I had to. I hope you’re happy in everything that you do, and I hope you never lose your tender heart.